It’s all real.

(Bon sees you, and also me, and considers us primitive, yet there’s still time for us to figure it out)

So, forgive me for bothering the like 6 people who read this, but I was trying to solve a puzzle.

OK, so I have talked about how I get into these phases where I read a lot, think a lot, then become grumpy.

OK, I”m lying, I was grumpy the whole time.

In any case, this particular time I did that (like, today), I was also done writing for like 5 out of the last 6 days (had to take a night off to see a 90’s cover band, because that’s what you do when you become my age, etc) when I realized that I had forgotten to write down the ideas I had while waiting between bands.

I had dragged my friend out (let’s call him Patrick, because that’s my middle name) because he had had his heart trampled upon 2 weeks earlier, and the dude just needed to scream out some Rage Against The Machine (Fuck you, I won’t do what you told me) like we all do sometimes. In any case, good show. But before they came on, I had a thought. I had been trying to figure out how to sum up, into something simpler, the theme of what I was writing for the last week or so, and it came to me after some No Doubt song (which I sort of like, actually).

And, with no further ramblings, here is essentially what it was, as reconstructed in a hot shower, after the fact:

January 15, 2024

Shower Power Thoughts

Power

Control

Transcendence

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In the trauma of our young age, we sought power

Having gained power, we realized we weren’t in control

Having gained Control, we realized it wasn’t ours, so we set it free

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It is a hard thing to do, perhaps, but it is the only way for us to transcend into….

We are not in control; without control, whose power are we wielding?

Transcendence won’t make sense to us yet; that’s the only thing I understand about Transcendence.

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I abdicate my role in your story, for now.

But remember: Power, Control, and maybe Transcendence.