Another male perspective on something I cannot comprehend, I know. But I have a few frustrations I want to vent, understanding that many feminists (and I count myself among them) will view my comments as just not getting it.
I will not recap the events over the last weekend about the Elevatorgate issue that arose from Rebecca Watson’s recent video and subsequent kerfuffle. If you don’t know, then simply skip this (or catch up and come back). I had a long conversation with Ginny about this yesterday, one that made it clear that I’m not completely understanding Watson’s (and many other women’s) experience with this, but nonetheless an issue I have thought a lot about the last few days.
During that conversation with Ginny, I said something that was better articulated in a comment by a “Marty” on Phil Plait’s blog today (#31)
Just as it would be insulting for me to assume that every moment I spend with other women is a possible sexual encounter, it’s also insulting to treat every moment a woman spends around any man as a potential sexual assault.
This gets to the heart of part of this issue for me. Now, I recognize that there is no comparing the issue of me being around a woman and feeling like I want to be sexual with her and the fear a woman might feel in an enclosed space, especially if he is hitting on her. But what I think has been overlooked in the conversations about this issue in the last few days (and I have read many, not nearly half however, of the comments on the various blogs that have brought this up) is the fact that their is a two-sided responsibility here and that there are frustrations that are valid for people in elevator guy’s place.
What I have learned
I have learned that many women would feel uncomfortable, and not in just some socially anxious way, if they were in an elevator with me, alone, and I propositioned her. Even if I used respectful words. Even if I didn’t physically touch, or even get close to, her. Even if (as one commenter on Pharyngula said) it were at noon. This teaches me that it is just a thing not to do if only for the fact that it will not work. That is, even if I was convinced there was nothing wrong with doing so per se, as many commenters still uphold, the fact is that it is not pragmatically wise. I accept that it causes women discomfort, and I want to avoid that.
I have learned that many women think a lot about how to avoid sexual assault day to day. I have learned that the fear of such things is prominent for many people. I knew previously that the statistics for rape and sexual assault are astoundingly high, but I learned that an elevator is one of the places where the anxiety is a little higher.
I will not be propositioning women in elevators, ever. Even if I see one smiling at me and giving me bedroom eyes as we ascend (or descend), I’ll wait until she is off the elevator to say anything. Certainly, if I see Rebecca Watson in an elevator, I will wait until another time to compliment her, just in case it comes across as flirting. Let’s just say when I’m interested in someone I don’t hide it well (And no, that was not a crude reference…).
Also, I’ll certainly never look at this song the same again:
Essentially, I understand that as a male in our culture, I have a responsibility to be aware of how my “privilege” blinds me to how I can use sexuality in ways that make women uncomfortable. I accept that some things I may do, even while trying to be respectful of women as people, will come across as creepy and inappropriate. I will keep trying to expand my understanding of this problem.
What I want others to understand
For clarification, much of the following is NOT directed towards Rebecca Watson per se. this issue has grown larger than the initial encounter that spawned it. It’s mostly a rant.
Just because statistics of rape are ridiculously high, and the vast majority of them are committed by men to women, does not mean that women are rationally justified to live their lives in fear of men, even in elevators. I know that most women do not, but the comments in recent days concerning this issue tells me that many do. I am an advocate of not allowing fear to dominate a person’s behavior or thinking. Fear is a tool of oppression as much as patriarchy, white/male privilege, or wealth disparity. When you encounter a guy hitting on you in an elevator, you need to keep in mind that even though the statistics of assault are really really high, probability states that he’s just clueless at best, overly aggressive at worst. He’s probably just drunk.
I want women to be cautious, aware, and safe, but I don’t want them to be afraid of men without justification. And women do have the right to request that a certain kind of behavior is not done (like hitting on women in elevators), however you have to keep in mind that you are responsible for how you are interpreting people’s actions based upon statistics. I think it is fair to request that women do not assumes that violence is likely, even while being aware of its possibility. I think the distinction is important.
I do not believe Rebecca Watson did anything wrong in that elevator or in her subsequent video. The guy was probably clueless, and her advice to not do that was good advice. Whatever increases well-being, as Sam Harris says, right? I like Rebecca Watson. I think she is intelligent, thoughtful, funny, and eloquent. I have met her a few times, although we have never spoken more than a word or few to each other because she is usually inundated with fans and friends, as a person of her abilities warrants. I happen to also think she is an attractive woman, and under the right circumstances I would like to get to know her better (both intellectually and otherwise). Is that sexist? Am I sexualizing her? Perhaps, but I am not merely sexualizing her. I think that creates a distinction which matters as well.
Luckily for her, I don’t drink coffee. I would also not use this euphemism to proposition someone anyway, nor would I do so without any existing familiarity at very least. I also don’t think that coldly propositioning anyone is wrong or creepy in all cases, just not pragmatic in most cases.
If I were to find myself talking to Rebecca Watson and got any indication that she might be interested in getting to know me, I would probably ask her if she’d like to get a drink and talk alone (but still in public, to start). And I would let things take their natural course from there. I doubt I’d have that opportunity, as I have no reason to think she would be interested in me (despite the fact that I’m brilliant and beautiful, that is…). Of course, my guess is that most men will certainly avoid, if they have been paying attention, hitting on her at any conferences from now on, and I am no exception to this. Perhaps that was what she wanted, I don’t know.
But could I imagine a situation where I would say or do something that would set off a woman’s creeper-meter? Oh for sure! I have no doubt that if actually faced with a women I was interested in romantically or sexually, I could (and certainly have in the past) creep said woman out. The best intentions and the utmost respect can’t always avoid that, as sometimes it is just a look in the eye, bad choice of words, or awful timing to do so.
And that sucks, because it’s very very frustrating to know this fact looms over interpersonal interactions where sexuality is a factor. As a man who wants to be sex-positive, likes casual sex on occasion, and meets attractive women while out and about, the fact that no matter my intentions I am more likely to creep a woman out than gain her interest is frustrating. And it’s not that I assume I have the possibility of a sexual encounter with any women for whom I have interest, its just that when I would like some sexual contact with a woman I just met or don’t know well, my asking may come across as inappropriate even while presented respectfully.
I often find myself asking myself, after hearing of stories where men are perceived as creepy, questions like ‘is there a way he could have asked which would not have been creepy?’ And, if not, was it really creepy or was she just not attracted to him in particular? Also, is it sometimes the case that people are creeped out without justification? I think these questions expose important distinctions as well.
There seems to be a tension, here, between the ideal sex-positive world that I strive for and one described by those talking about privilege of which men are usually blind. I have no desire to be a pick up artist (PUA), but I do desire to live in a world where sexual interest in a woman, expressed openly, honestly, and respectfully, is not called sexist. I, as a man, simply don’t know how to approach women I am attracted to, preferably in an at-least partially public area, without being pegged as suffering from privilege-blindness. I hope there is a realistic answer to this tension, because I want to be respectful while enjoying sex with others who want the same thing. And just like women can’t tell the good men from the bad ones (the Schrodinger’s rapist problem), I can’t always tell the sluts (not a derogatory term) from the women who will view my proposition as creepy. Let’s call that the Schroedinger’s slut problem.
I, as a slut, just want to be able to be a slut in a feminist world. I know there are others out there too who feel this way, but now I’m anxious about being the next elevator guy because I crossed someone’s boundaries without knowing it. Yes, I won’t hit on a woman in an elevator now (my consciousness has been raised, thank you Rebecca), but I might do it while she’s alone at the end of the bar, while at a party where she knows nobody, or some other situation that is uncomfortable or creepy for her. And then I’ll have to be told that this is also unacceptable, and many people will agree and see me as sexist, and I’ll be just as confused as I was when I first read about what elevator guy did.
At bottom, I want women to give us men a little more leeway concerning creepiness, and I want men to treat women better so that men can stop being feared as sexual predators. It will be so much better for everyone, men, to stop being predators. And it would be some improvement if women would give us a little lenience about perceived creepiness.
This is more of a rant borne of frustration than anything else. Thanks for listening.
So, Rebecca Watson, would you like to come over to Philly for a drink? I promise; no elevators!
(that wasn’t creepy, was it?)




